Turning a volcano to life !!
All it takes is one day, one moment, one instance to bring a volcano to life ! Today reminded me of such a volcano.
A year ago, Life was moving along, me getting comfortable in a routine, lack of empathy and efforts perturbing me but bound in shackles of own thoughts and inadequacies,I hesitated - hesitated to take the right steps towards the correct course of action.
One fine day , i was woken up with a harsh reality when I took up a challenging situation. Frought with uncertainties and high risk I took the plunge of giving the best chance to a difficult situation with the help of people at their best in their fields.
What followed was a series of life turning events. People who could not stand up to the quality they claimed to have, not having the courage to accept that they could not provide the best and the worst not having their heart in the right place, turned around and placed me in a corner. A corner of doubts, hurt, insults and hard eye opening, being put on the stand , and being the punching bag of the unworthy ones.
Sitting in front of a group of people i had placed at very high levels in my life, observing them losing what seemed their grip on reality saddened me and punched me right in the face.
To not judge anyone there indeed became a Hercules task and i am human enough to accept that i am unable to forget, forgive and let go. The incident shook me and my trust to the core, and left me shaking with anger and helplessness.
That one instant the scales tipped. The green glasses dropped and the stark reality blinded me.
My soul took the hit badly and it was devastated to see the true dark colours of many loved ones. As my soul and myself recovered , we recognised so many friends on the fence and the solo battlefield we had to trudge through. Many masks dropped and and many truths were underlined.
I learnt the lesson- bitter one albeit but learnt it well. Moved on with more patience, more empathy than ever before and definitely more courage. I can proudly say at the end of one year i have arrived at a much better place with more mental peace and infinite more possibilities. Adverse events woven by unkind people turned into blessings. Lesson re learnt - don't ask God to give you what you desire- ask HER to give you what you deserve - as you will always deserve more than what you desire. I have reached a place very different from what i desired but during the course i realised ... all that happened - happened for the best !
Jai Mata Di !!
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